I am Goldfish...watch me space out

This Is What’s Wrong With Me

This Is What’s Wrong With Me:

1) I am insecure, I have low self-esteem.

2) I believe that I don’t deserve to be loved 

3) Or that I even deserve to be happy.

4) I am selfish and sometimes cruel.

5) Even the dog doesn’t like me.

6) I sleep with my eyes partially open.

7) I snore, especially when I’m tired.

8) I’ve gained considerable weight,

9) & I’m not motivated enough to try to lose it.

10) I get distracted easy, it takes a lot to keep my attention.

11) I look like a snob just ‘cuz I’m not smiling.

12) I act like a ditz so people will find me harmless.

13) I find nothing attractive about myself.

14) I feel like a loser,

15) & look like one too.

There’s just too many flaws to list…

But when I tell you the reason why I am these things, what I really want from you is this:

1) Just listen to me.

2) Listen and remember what I say.

3) I don’t need you to try to fix me or my problems. 

4) I already know I’m broken and imperfect. Help me see past that. Maybe there’s something I’m not seeing…maybe I might have something about me that is good.

5) Don’t get upset at me. The both of us upset isn’t going to make either one of us feel better.

6) Hold my hand…or maybe even give me a hug.

7) Let me know that it’ll be okay, ‘cuz most days, I already have a hard time believing that it will be.

It’s hard enough to let you know what’s really going on in my head.

It’s even harder to admit to myself that I need to tell you these things.

I’m not pushing you away….or shutting you out.

I’m just scared that I’m never going to be good enough,

& that I’m too depressing and emotional to have around.

I’m tired of crying, but the tears won’t stop.

I’m tired of hurting, but the pain won’t go away.

I don’t know what else to do.

I guess I’ll just sit here quietly and hope sleep comes soon.

“In every heart there is a room, a sanctuary safe and strong.

To heal the wounds of lovers past until a new one comes a long…

I spoke to you in cautious tones, you answered me with no pretense.

& still I feel I said to much, my silence is my self defense.”

I honestly love it when somebody sees me, screams my name & then runs to hug me.

reblogged from justsomekidds

fatkidsmiling:

I want someone.

reblogged from bryanlettucetomato

irraeplaceable:

I can just look at everyday, take account of everything they are; their looks, their personality, their style, their character, their daily attitude, their whole existence, and just be like daaamn.. thats mine? 

(Source: profoundbound)

I’ll never be good enough for you….will I?

Not a pity moment, but more a realization…